my own post

things have been happening too fast recently. no time to think. too screwed. i dont know how am i suppose to explain myself given im in this mess. but i just want to make it clear that committment is something i value alot too, alongside sincerity and responsibility. i dont do things for the sake of... i dont know, but i do things because i love doing them. not for people, not for any specific reasons, but just because i love doing them. i dont know how to explain myself so people will get this. but i guess, i shouldnt really care if they cast upon me weird looks and have a bad impression of me. i have more important things for me to think about. but... i just cant help it sometimes you see... i know i let alot of people down, im really sorry. give me some time, i'll pick myself up.