Dont say im unappreciative ah. THANK YOU DADDY MOMMY FOR THE NEW LAPPY! LOVE YOU LOADS! <3 Hmm... Dont think they can see it either. Ohwell. But i really thank them for getting me the lappy just because i said and complained recently that i urgently need one. Even Jialing said, "Whoa. Yesterday just hear you say, today you go buy le ah." Well. Wanted a VAIO at first simply because it's so pretty. But upon second thoughts, i cant get over the guilt of buying something just for the brand and image. So... I took Qunxiang's advice and got a FUJITSU. It looks kinda boring, but ohwell, im pretty happy over the specs and the fact that i own a lappy of my own, no more sharing! Actually, any lappy will do. I just want to have one of my own, not a shared one. And no more auto-shutdowns, no more restarting over again and again, no more seeing peirong's name pop out of msn a million times a night.

Im actually much of a computer IT bai chi you see. I got the lappy home and for the entire night, i couldnt find my wireless thingy. Cant get connected and that got me pretty pekcek. Bugged kev the whole time with no results because i dont even know what a router is. Lol. In the end i randomly checked the wireless network thing again and poof! It appeared! Hahahha. Alright, THANK YOU KEV!!! In return, i'll give you my utmost support for your.... OP. Yes, OP! Hahahah. That's what matters most now right! And that's 50% reason why i got my lappy. -.- Believe it or not, yes it's for OP. Such a waste of money right... Anyway, i just realise, kev never ever tags my blog, so give some response if you see this. Lol.

Tadada... Sophiedear got me into the mood of hearing old sweet love songs like Close to You and Perfect Moment. More recommendation anyone?

Recently miss alot of people and i cant do anything to see/hear/talk to them. >.<

Want to tell Huihong, love ya be strong!
Want to tell Baobei, love ya too and dont worry about Saturday. When you want to complain about PW and videos, you know who to look for. :)
Want to tell Sophia, loves and i want to see you more and more everyday! And i just love the moment both of us break out in 1 2 3 4!
Want to tell Steph, love ya babeh for being so ever happy and enthu whenever you're with us!
Want to tell Gillian, PLEASE CALL/SMS/VISIT ME IF YOU EVER GET TO SEE THIS!
Want to tell Jialing, dont worry about Saturday too and i know that these few days arent exactly your happiest times. Whatever it is, Im just a phone call away, be it just your mom nagging or about the latest updates of your life. Hahah. Love ya.

Im sorry i complained. Im sorry i grumbled. I understand why you did that. But... this selfish part of me just cant take it down. Ohwell, i just want you to know, no matter how much i grumble and complain, i really love you loads for being there, for your effort. I really appreciate that you came down for me, er hua bu shuo. And i just need you to know, when you are tired, i'll be your pillow alright? please be your happy old self soon. And, be strong okay. I'll be there. All the time.

Scream'08. Awesome! Hahah. I really want to commend the councillors who put in sooo much effort in making it a successful. Initially, we thought it was going to be pretty lame. Right before the trail, we were scared that it was going to be damn scary. When we went through it, we found it awesome! Hahaha. It was just as a haunted trail is suppose to be! :) Glad that Steph had fun. She was super funny and enthu about the entire thing and she even paid for my maze. THANK YOU STEPH AND I LOVE YOU!!! Hahaha. Im sorry to those councillors i attacked and really, you guys did a great job! Ohman... im having a terrible sorethroat now because i screamed too much. -.-"

Hmm. What shall i blog about today? Hahah. While sophia dear got back her passion for blogging, mine dwindled away... Anyways, im still going to blog because im so bored. Lol. Been pretty emo these days which i hate, because i bring gloom to people around me too. You see, people like happy people bringing happiness to them. Emo-ness just dont work. Lol. Heard a (hmmm... i guess you could say, good) news today, so my mood lifted up pretty much. Hahahah.

Came home showered and realised, I HAPPILY LEFT MY SPECS, CONTACTS BOX AND COMB IN SCHOOL! Moreover in a weird random ulu toilet. Thank God Yuli still in school and she helped me pick up and keep. But... but... BUT WHY YULI STAY IN JURONG?!?! i cant go her house to collect it!!! >< Monday somemore no school then can only get it back on Tuesday. Is this what i get for being kind to help Shijun keep his mp4 which he falalaly left in the classroom?!?! AArrggHH!!!

*Takes a deep breath* Alright, let's talk about more calming matters. Had OP presentation today. Our group totally unprepared. By the time our turn, Shijun havent even type finish his ppt. Then tried asking other groups go first but they also dont want, say they also need edit things. BUT AT LEAST YOU HAVE SLIDES MAH!!! We dont even have slides. -.- Alright, shall not rant about that. I can understand everyone has their ku zhong for not wanting to present. We proceeded to present anyway, crappily. Hahah. Turned out not as bad as i thought though. I practically read my ENTIRE wr and glared at Mdm Ong which after that she gave the feedback of, "You shouldn't stare at only your assessors. It intimidates them." -.- ooookkayy. Got the message.

Im feeling pretty bored now and i miss TeeHuihong who makes me feel so abandoned everytime. Horrible girl ah. Ohwell, hope you'll be free tomorrow night to come for Scream.

Waiting for Vera and Kev to come online play viwawa. Vera's train broke down. Lol. Hint for her to get some serious exercise. Hmm, so long never viwawa already. I was sort of boycotting it for my mom's addiction. My mom practically steals every chance to play it lah. Like when i walk away from the comp for 5 min to throw rubbish she also can play one game. Cant stand it. Im so going to get my own lappy.

Alright alright. Sleepy...

all of a sudden, you felt like you just lost everything in the world...
and i dreamt of you, can you believe it.

Sometimes, i feel, growing up makes you another person. And well, i have absolutely no desire to become that person.

So emotionally tired. I need some rest.

Promos results are out. Hahah. Glory be to God. Hallelujah! I CAN BE PROMOTED WITH 4 H2S!!! :)



1 General Paper H1 58.3 C
2 Mathematics H2 42.2 S
3 Physics H2 51.7 D
4 Chemistry H2 50.6 D
5 Economics H2 51.6 D

Hello people. It's 8 plus am now and Peirong has just finished her Insights and Reflections plus her Written Report! Lalala. Great job Peirong! :)

It's insane, i tell you. For the past one week, PW has been on my mind 24/7 whenever im not thinking about anything else. Be it eat, sleep, walk, talk, msn, whatever, im thinking of PW. My conversations with people have dwindled to pathetic convos about WR and OP. My social circle has minimised to consisting of only Shijun, Huixian, Jinyu and Ms Ang. It's crazy. It's crazy.

Im going to sleep now and wake up at 1300. There's combined grd 7/8 class today! Whee! Can't wait to see you guys! ^^

i have no idea why am i so affected by your every move.

i cant help but tell you.
i cant help but hesitate over your sms.
i cant help but be angry at you.

Why cant you just freakin' stay out of my life?!?!

my baobei has been complaining that i've been neglecting my blog. it's only 10 days plus minus my dear.

Alright. I officially declare i <3 grade 7 dances! Hahah. The difference between grade 7 and grade 6 is quite significant i guess. I can just understand why the xinyi and belle say grade 8 is difficult. And a little of today's lunch. Omg. Stupid Cheryl Chai and Serene keep bullying me! FIrst trying to squish me off the chair during lunch. Then they start taking my phone and sending ilu messages to all the guys on my contact list. -.- i had to apologise to everyone of them. And Vicky kenna victimed also. They went to send "i accept you. now." to that Jingquan guy and made Vicky so worried. Lol. i dont care ah. Serene and Cheryl owes me chocs. And i dont want those that comes out from their butts. Lalala. Baobei came to play today. Wanted to whip up smth really nice in the kitchen but somehow we ended up cooking maggie mee which became mee sua and baking cupcakes. And i got MAF photos from her!



































And here comes the photos taken from Hanhan's house celebrating Baobei's birthday!













Lastly, in response to Yuli's question,

"Do you love him? Or do you love love?"

I LOVE LOVE.

I was just thinking today

Growing up is so painful sometimes
but you need this pain precisely to allow you to see better
the love you receive in this world
to appreciate what you have and what you don't
and from there
you get another form of bliss

i guess you can call it painful happiness
the kind you can smile with tears in your eyes

Hmm. It ended. I thank God for answering my prayers. Have been praying so hard these days and relying so much on the Lord for strength. Physics paper was better than i expected it to be. Though i may not score well, but nonetheless, i shall not be greedy and i'll be very very satisfied with a pass.

And i promise, i will pluck up my courage to do something i need to do all my life if i get to be promoted with 4 H2s.





Trip home was pretty sad. I mean, i took a look around and the bus was empty, the train was empty, all for me. All of a sudden you feel so alone and you wonder why.




Sometimes, I really felt like Im this irritating person in their live who just cant simply get a life and okay, live her own life. I mean, I rely on them so much, emotionally, sometimes physically, all the time financially. I call them, I bug them, I make them feel guilty, I put them at a lost of what to do. I play a emo friend role sometimes and make their lives difficult. They never complained, they cared for me, they worried for me. Saying all these, i don't intend to make them feel weird or do anything more for me. I just want to let them know, I appreciate their love for me and I thank them for always being there for me. And I just want them to know, they mean so much to me, so much more than they can ever imagine.





Went swimming with family today at this Sengkang recreational centre thing. Dad and Mom both took leave today. I never knew public pools can be this cool. You've got to check this out seriously.



They have this Indoor Pool,



Mega Awesome Slides,



A really nice and fun play pool,



and this is the usual normal big pool, just a nicer glam version.


I mean, okay, it's not all that great. But come on, when do you see public pools so fun-filled? Not to mention, there's this jacuzzi thing too. Had lots of fun there. Got to go back there again someday really soon. Hahah. And im going to bring along people next time i go.




Alright, went to watch House Bunny with Huihong at night. Hahahah. Typical American bimbo show. But that's the whole point of watching it, isn't it? Hahahah. I just have this thing for light stuff sometimes, laugh at stupid jokes, cry at the slightest sad moment. This is what i called relieve stress from the hectic lifestyle of a student. Heehee. Was caught by Wenxian again at Tampines mall.

"Why are you here?"
"Watching movie. You?"
"Same here. What movie you watching? Please don't tell me you're sitting in front of me or something."
"House Bunny."
"I zhong 4D already."

-.-

Lol. Anyway, Wenxian claims that he can recognise me immediately everytime, but i never seem to be able to see him. To tell you the truth, i forgot how he look like le. I mean, i don't have his super uber good memory. I saw him less than 5 times in my life. Lol. And that was 3 years ago.





And both Mini and Qunxiang reached there destinations safely! Thanks to Jesus once again. I've been praying so hard for them ever since they got on to their plane. Im not plane-phobic, but i just have this weird scared feeling when i see my close friends or relatives taking plane.


To Mini:

Really want to thank her for her hard work in taking care of me, taking care of the family so well. Now that i think about it, the way she handle our family is really great. I mean, she just blends in so well with everybody and I could tell that she was sincerely taking care of us. Whenever i sleep late at night, she'll know and she'll get me some nourishing stuff to eat. Whenever mom uses comp till late night, she'll worry for mom's health. She knows every single nitty gritty details of our preference and bad habits. Especially when it comes to taking care of meimei, i could really see that she treated meimei as her own daughter and loved her with all her heart.

I'll really miss her.



To Qunxiang:

He's this really kind guy i met at Eco. He's this one friend i felt who was arranged by God to meet me and that us knowing each other is more than just coincidence. Hahah. Seriously, there's simply too much coincidence. Coincidently, he's from Hwachong. Coincidently, he's from Apollo. Coincidently, he's from 7B senior class. Coincidently, he's from my pri school. Coindently, he lives almost opposite me. Let's hope coincidently, we'll be from the same uni lah. Hahahah. This guy's really great. I don't know him well, yet he's been giving me free tuitions and consultations to help me in my studies. During my all time low point during promos, along with Huihong, Jialing and Krystal, he's been giving me encouragements, calling me up in the middle of the night, making sure i study and not sleep, and helping me out with my PW. Sometimes i do wonder where he get all his kindness, compassion and patience from. Hahah. Whatever it is, I want to really thank him and tell him i appreciate all that he did for me. ^^ And of course, wish him all the best in Cambridge!

I'll miss you too!


Lastly, I want to thank all those who have been encouraging me and telling me to hold on during my promos. A big hug to you guys. You'll never know how much your encouragement means to me.

From clique and friends, Sophia, Huihong, Krystal , Jialing, Qunxiang

From 08S6Q, Bena, Yuli, Kaixin, Jialin, Kevin

And Cheryl Chai! Who just told me to think positively not stop thinking about retaining!




I was blog hopping when i came across this in Yuli's blog,

I think regret is the worst form of misery, just as delusion is the worst form of stupidity.