Found this. Credits to Michelle. Really pretty, isn't it.

Hmm. Just read the blog post of someone really close.

I don't know if i contributed any of your unhappiness these days, but i just wanna say, i really love you dear, and i won't be angry with you anymore. I'll try my very best to understand you because i don't think i can stand losing you. I want things to revert to the way they are before, the way we can talk to each other and not care even if the sky falls down, the way the first thing you'll do is to call me up when you are upset. I know sometimes i overreact over small things, but i guess you'll understand it too. The more i trust you, the more expectation i have from you, and sometimes, the greater the disappointment. But after all those sessions of complaining and ranting, i find myself unable to let go of you afterall.

I'm not going to find anymore excuses for myself. Im going to say, im sorry, i really need you my dear friend.

Lord, i pray that i'll have my best friend back again, truly.

Just had ballet at Crestar Loyang. Rachel and Xinyi gave Ms Pang presents for Teachers' Day. Make me so guilty for forgetting. >< Ms Pang gave us a good talk on our future in dance and set us thinking about some stuff. She mentioned some of her girls doing their advance in uni and how hard is it for them to travel so much and spend so much of their time for dance. And i thought, i wont even be in advance when im in uni, i'll be doing grade 8 if we progress from where we are now. Wondering if i'll be able to cope. Hmm. Shall to Ms Pang about it some day.

Well, after lesson, somehow i have no idea why, i just started thinking about dance and stuff. I really want to thank God for giving me the opportunity to dance. This is the very first time, i felt that God led me to dance for a reason. I have always wondered, why God gave me such passion for dance when no matter how hard i try, i'll never be very very good in it. Today, i see why. He gave me dance, to teach me lots and lots things and to keep me alive, to help me find myself. I thank Him for blessing me with Ms Pang. I never ever thought i could dance well, but Ms Pang, being ever so compassionate and understanding, she sees the positive side of everyone and their limits and she always makes me feel appreciated. Even though im not the best in class, for every single little thing that i put my utmost effort in, she could see it, and she'll say things like, "Go peirong!" May not seem significant, but for someone like me, i have never ever thought i was good at anything, and here is Ms Pang, showing her trust and faith in me that i can do well, i can do better. As i thought, i couldn't help but tear silently in the bus. God blessed me with so much, i should really do more in my part to make good use of what i have. And i thought of what Grace once said before, that sometimes, God only lifts you up with you are really broken and helpless. That when you see this Father always by your side, never leaving you. And you start to be able to appreciate and be thankful for all that you have.

May all glory be to Jesus.



Ohyes. Happy Teachers' Day Ms Pang! (Though i don't think you'll get to see this. Hahah.)



Jialing: Yesterday was productive! Hahah. Im gonna delude myself that yesterday was productive! I seriously have no idea why was i so sleepy yesterday, i didn't even have ballet yesterday!

Sia: Waahh!! Why u so efficient ah. Lol. You pok! Never go back Cedar! :(

Belle: HELLO HELLO HELLO! Hahaha. okayokay. Let you win. Since someone's exam on coming Monday! JIAYOU JIAYOU KAY! Go dian the examiner! Hahahah.

Tiffy: I WANT GO TOO! >< Why we don't receive such treatment when we were in Cedar. Unfair lahhh! :'( Alumni can go not. Hee.

Amirah: Yoo!!! Ehh. See when asked whole section go out mug leh. (that's for tiffy too) Ohmy, Hwachong turned me into a mugger. :( Nahh. Studies is important. Tsktsk. Hee.

Krystal: Yoo baobei! <333

Love's Law

Law of Conservation of Love:
The total amount of love in any system remains constant.

Newton's First Law of Love:
A person will tend to remain not in love or continue loving the same person, unless an external net love acts on him or her.

Newton's Second Law of Love:
The net love someone has is directly proportional to his or her love momentum, and is in the same direction.

Newton's Third Law of Love:
If Person A loves Person B, Person B will love back Person A with the same magnitude but opposite in direction.

Zeroth Law of Love-odynamics:
If two people are in love with the same person, they are in love with each other too.

Kirchhoff's Love Law:
The total amount of love a person gets will be equal to the total amount of love he or she gives others.

Le Chatelier's Principle of Love:
If a person's love for another person changes, the system's love equilibrium will shift to partially counter-act the change.

Valence Love Electron Pair Repulsion Theory:
Love competitors will arrange themselves so as to minimise repulsion among themselves.

Mathematical Induction of Love:
Let P(n) be the proposition that I love you on Day n.
First, show that P(1) is true => I love you on the first day.
Next, assuming P(k) is true, i.e. I love you on the kth day,
show that P(k+1) is also true, i.e. I also love you on the (k+1)th day.
Hence, by Mathematical Induction of Love, I love you everyday.

Hess' Law of Love:
The change in love composition of a system is independent of the pathway taken, and only dependent on the final and initial states of the parties involved.

Markonikov's Love Rule:
If a guy is attached to two girls, a third girl would be more likely to attach to him

Love Economies of Scale:
When a person gets himself/herself more girlfriends/boyfriends, he/she enjoys
Internal Economies of Scale

Technical Economies:
Indivisibilities:
Spread fixed costs such as plastic surgery, country club membership fees over larger output levels
Research and Development:
Research for more efficient ways to woo girls/guys

Marketing Economies
Bulk Purchase:
Buy flowers at lower prices
Bulk Distribution:
Cost efficient for transporting large quantities of love

Financial Economies
Deemed by florists as more credit-worthy
Restaurants more willing to offer loans

Risk-bearing Economies
Ability to Predict Demand more Accurately:
Bear lower risks and potential losses; at least one will marry him/her in the end
Diversification:
Fall in love for one can be offset by more love in another

Administrative and Managerial Economies
Cost of hiring love consultant spread over larger output.

However, with too many girlfriends/boyfriends, the person will experience
Internal Diseconomies of Scale.

Management Difficulties
Problems in Coordination and Communication:
Higher probability of communication breakdown and misinterpretation
Low Morale
Difficult to ensure that all girlfriends/boyfriends are happy and equally well treated

Meanwhile, as the industry grows, i.e. all his/her siblings are courting, he/she wil experience External Economies of Scale.

Economies of Concentration
Trained Workforce:
Whole family skilled in planting flowers

Better Infrastructure:
Better family cars to fetch girlfriend/boyfriend;
better home-cooked food to serve them

Economies of Information
Common information services, can exchange courting tips

Economies of Disintegration
Split up courting process (e.g. one specialises in meals, one specialises in movies)

However, if the industry is too large, they will experience
External Diseconomies of Scale.-

Higher Input Prices
Due to increased demand for factors of production (e.g. flowers, movie tickets), Florist Union more powerful, secure higher flower prices

Increased Strain on Infrastructure:
Infrastructure stretched to its limit- Congestion at home during weekend dinner times

Ohmy. This is so cute. Got it from Hanhan's blog. Hahah.

Just came back from a trip to Chinatown to do something about my broken feet. The uncle was like, "Whoa! Zai ah! Where got people sprain both feet together one!" And he did some weird thing like poking my hips with his elbow which made me run around yelling in pain. Lol. Then he was like, "Don't run don't run. You run the bone also run!" Okay. That sounds so comical. Anyway, the uncle also said something that made me think alot. He asked if i ever had treatment before going to him. So i said yes, but hte previous uncle anyhow anyhow poke my feet one. And he replied, "Aiyah. Don't say he anyhow anyhow lah. He must have put in effort right. It's just that it didn't work. If you go to him, then you must trust him."

That set me thinking for a long long time. True isn't it. Makes perfect sense. :) I should really reflect my thoughts and actions sometimes. Hahah.

Bought new earpiece! The pinky sony one spoil le. Sad. But ohwell. My new lime green philip one looks nice too! Comes with this music sharing adaptor. ^^

Mommy brought Mini to the agency today to settle her going home air ticket. Sort of confirmed that she really wants to go back, don't want to stay in Singapore le. The news hit me quite badly. Think i haven't learnt to accept loss of a loved one and maybe i'll never ever learn to. In the blink of an eye, Mini spent 4 years of her life working for us. This helper not only does her work because she has to, but i could see that she really does it because she loves the family, she loves us. I'll never forget the times she makes breakfast for me when i have no money, the sleep she sacrifice at night to help me massage my broken feet, the times she worry about mommy overusing the computer and falling sick. Im going to the agency to look for a new maid tomorrow, but i think, the likelyhood that i find someone like Mini will be really slim. Afterall, she's my first helper and i thank God for blessing me with such a great helper. Badly didn't want her to go back at first. But after i hear her side of story, i start to feel sad for her. The last time she went back to Java, her children find her unfamiliar and refuse to sleep with her. It must be really hard for her i guess. Well, i'll miss her. I just hope October 15th will not be here so soon...

Spent so much creating and editing a new blog. Suddenly find html codes and stuff pretty fun. Hahah.

Today's a beautiful Saturday. Suppose to have open house in Crestar, but today want to go to the sinseh to do something about my feet. Sprained it so many times previously I've weakened my ankles so much subconsciously. Yesterday's class was such a disappointment. I just tried and tried but no matter how hard i try, i just could not get up on my toes. I just feel so helpless not knowing what can i do about it. It's still bothering me up till now and i can't get my mind off it. Baahhh...

Cheryl's leaf fall fall fall fall fall. I don't know where it fell. And i like tea i don't like coffe. And coffee-tea-mix is gross. Lol.

I'm still sitting here procrastinating. Have been planning to prac my piano since eons ago. But here i am, still blogging and butt glued to the chair. Whywhywhy. I feel so sorry to MsChng. She had so much faith in me thinking i'll pass my grade 8 and the forever 不争气me always slack and only start practicing my grd 8 one month before. The result obviously is a fail for a musical ungenius me. Lol. Aiyooh. Tomorrow must break the news to her. Feel so bad. But ohwell. We expected it anyway. And we'll start playing nicer songs to prepare for my exam next year! Really want to do well next year le. A quote from Zhuoyan, "Then must jiayou and practice hard lah!" Okayokay. I'll do my best.

Tonight my dear tanjialing coming to stayover again to mugmug. I think im getting more and more no life le. Have been studying so much this week. Ohright. Maybe not alot. But this week is the first time i prepared for almost all my tests and it actually felt good. ^^ I felt like i did my best during the tests. Well, this may just mean i'll get greater disappointment if i do badly in any of them. Nonono, cannot think of it this way. Must be more optimistic. :) Anyway, this week's school gave me the inspiration to study harder and im starting to get the drive. Finish up Organic Chem today!

Went back to Cedar yesterday and met up with all the juniors! Ohmy, miss them so much! Tiffany, Amirah, Beatrice, Madeline!!! And of course Claudia! Hahahah. First thing Amirah ask me, "ehh. did i grow fatter?" What a way to say hi man. Hahaha. Met up with 4I'07 peeps. Whoo. Mianmian brought a whole big bag of muahchee and distribute to everyone. Hahah. Just nice to fill up my hungry stomach. Talking of that reminds me of Cedar's bak chor mee. Sad lah. Yesterday canteen no open. I've waiting for months just for this day to eat the bak chor mee then the auntie so not 配合 me. :( Teachers' Day of course cannot miss out teachers. Talked to MdmLum, MrChia, MrGoh. I think they don't recognise me already. ><