Hmm. 3.5 hours more to 2009. here i am to do some reflections for the soon to pass 2008.

learnt so much so much this year: people, studies, attitude... identified people who are going to last with me forever, seen false faces, tried the impossible, stretched my limits... its a year of pushing myself forward endlessly, feeling the lethargy and breathlessness, yet not daring to stop and acknowledge the presence of it. learnt to cope with disappointment after disappointment until you feel so cheapened by the number of times you've tried, yet not giving up because you know you wont be able to forgive yourself. a year of trying to be yourself, falling down and climbing up, falling down and climbing up.

nonetheless, i appreciate everything that i've been through for i believe, im put through all these, for a reason. im here to learn and to grow up. i learn to submit myself to the Lord, to put my trust in Him, for He has great plans for me.

2009, im going to try to be more disciplined, study hard and at the same time, i will not give up on my passion, no matter what happens. i feel like im trying to protect a thin thread of silk, soon to be broken anytime, something so fragile...
i pray with my everything, that i wont lose it. please.

Lord, I want to know you more;
follow you with all my heart and soul.
Lord, I want to know your voice.
Lead me in your way, everlasting.

Show me your ways,
teach me and guide me in your truth, my savior.
Confide in me, speak mysteries,
my heart is longing for your touch.
For only you can fill this need in me.

Lord, I want to know you more;
follow you with all my heart and soul.
Lord, I want to know your voice.
Lead me in your way, everlasting.

You go before me,
open doors that lead me to your faithfulness.
Whisper in me, so heavenly,
my heart is longing for your touch.
For only you can fill this need in me.

Age to age, everlasting to everlasting.
Generations will seek your face.

Fear.

Something i've tasted so often it gets sickening. i dont want to go through it again. you gave me false hope again and again.

Nua totally today...
Awesome nonetheless, made new loads of new friends from other schools! praise the Lord! ^^

its 28th dec already. 3 more days to 2009? just celebrated xmas with church. pastor talked about some things that set me thinking: God chose us to run the finals for Him. what does that tell you? well, it tells me, God trust that we are the best people He has and its our turn to choose Him as our leader and allow Him to take control. "if i only have 1 life, i want to live it to the fullest." -sister leah.
i've been living my life in regrets and i want it no more. i know im young and have so much more to learn. and the first thing i would like to do, is to learn to love God. 2009 will be a great year. dont believe me? just wait and see for yourself.

8 hours more to camp. i pray for strength and courage to face what awaits me for the day. i pray for wisdom as i handle all matters and i pray for the Lord to make a way for me, to learn, to dance, to be part of them.

My Jesus, my Saviour
Lord there is none like You
All of my days I want to praise
The wonders of Your mighty love

My comfort, my shelter
Tower of refuge and strength
Let every breath, all that I am
Never cease to worship You

Shout to the Lord
All the Earth, let us sing
Power and majesty
Praise to the King
Mountains bow down
And the seas will roar
At the sound of Your name

I sing for joy at the work
Of Your hand
Forever I'll love You
Forever I'll stand
Nothing compares
To the promise I have
In You

Okay. Yuli is an imba drawer. lol. not chou ti drawer drawer but drawer of extremely disgustingly cute things. >< i officially hate her man. lol. unless she offers to draw me a lifetime of cute things.

okay, that so didnt mean to come out. i was about to blog when i decided to bloghop first and i hop upon yuli's blog. omg. please DONT visit there. extremely cute things there. caution! lol. come on yuli, draw me a lifetime of those and you'll accumulate good karma. :)

anyway, studied with huihong today at cartel from 3 to 9. One of the shortest studying period in cartel ever and one of the ex-est yet one of the highest and funnest. hahah. studied a few pages before we started getting high and camwhoring. lol. something that we have never done before because peirong doesnt like her face in the camera. yup. :) unproductive/productive. depends on how you view it. i was unable to do a single question of math properly since the very start of everything. so bu gan xin. i decided to redo everything. and... i ended up still not able to do anything. please commend me on my determination. thank you thank you. :)

peirong: aye my friend say you pretty leh.
huihong: hee. really ah.
peirong: but his taste is warped one lah.
huihong: -.-

somehow, huihong's phone hates me and i ended up looking super pale and sick. :/

MERRY CHRISTMAS! okay fine. xmas was officially over 53 minutes ago. hah. hope you guys enjoyed your christmas. though mine started out badly in the morning with all that shouting from mommy and daddy, it ended with loads of fun and laughter with the eco vmd people. :) christmas at mama's place was much better than expected, well at least this year we got to see the people, not like previous years whereby we reach only when people left. well, though it was awkward, nonetheless it felt great to see them after such a long while. lindee yi yi's gabriel is soooooo cute! hahahaha. so was gracia! ^^ love it when gracia jumps when she's angry. super cute! this christmas was a special one and i love it. :)

had presents exchange in qunxiang's house. i received the most special and meaningful present ever. gonna frame it up. my present was from zhihao and it states



COOL RIGHT. hahaha.

I think, i found happiness finally. What lies the the future, i do not know. But now, i thank the Lord Jesus for my blessings.

I can do a baby freeze! ^^

I thank God for the successful event today. Hallelujah to my awesome Father Jesus! :) There was great turnout rate and had loads of fun playing with the guys. That is all i need, to see the smiles on the faces of everyone there. Thank you my Lord Jesus. Thank you. ^^





Im a mega superstar with a paycheck of $100,000 living in a fault-line realty!!!

Doesnt these look just like stars?
Oh... I cant wait to dance. :/

okay. so long nv update le. firstly, lets start from...

Monday!
Alright im having difficulty remembering. OHH! Remember le. Went shopping with Jialin and Twilight!!! Hahah. I guess the movie's pretty good lah. Compared it too much with the book, cant help it! >< But seems not bad to me! Hahah. So peeps, please do watch it! Hahah. There was this couple behind us who said, "Man, i thought it was a horror movie!" after that show. Lol!

Tuesday!
Went to shop for Sophie's present with Jialing. Somehow, both of us got super tired and sleepy halfway. Lol! I think marina square there the air got sleepy dust. Yup. Anyway, ballet then went to celebrate Sophie's birthday near Punggol Park there. Omg. Kunkun super sweet lah, sing song plus guitar plus dance. So sad wind too strong, then his heart of candles cannot light up. The guys were super kua zhang lah. They uprooted a bench from the park and placed it in the middle of the clearing. x.x Yup. Love my bplusbs! They made the effort to come despite their super vusy schedule! loves loves loves! <3








Wednesday!
Nothing pretty much. Slacker daddy and mommy on leave. Brought meimei for some allergy test at KK which caused her to have some funny dots on her arms. After that went with Daddy to gao dim his phone, like finally. O.o Kutoed Dad 10 bucks for pei-ing him. Wahahaah. Then went recce the venue for VAN with jialing. ended up sleepy again. okay im starting to think, this is a jialing problem. lol! went to national library to sleep. hahahah. i wonder how we look.

Today!!!
Today is the happiest day in my holidays. :) Though he didnt seem to have much faith in me and seem to take me in because of sympathy, ultimately, he gave me the chance. i will give up anything to work hard to prove that his choice was a right one. Was smiling all the way home and praising the Lord. Hallelujah!!! Lord Jesus is my Provider and my most awesome Father! Praise be to the King! ^^

NOT SO SILENT NIGHT 2008!!! Hahahah. Yes tanjialing, i kope the audience seat right in front of you just to see you. In fact, im there just for you. Okay, and gillian. Lol! Awesome concert! =D

A Nutcracker Story. i think that's what its called. didnt go for actual perf backstage because rach says ms pang told her alot people helping out today and they wont need our help. rach was funny, " i hate this perf! its too organised! i feel not needed!" we took the 4 yr olds yesterday and they were sooo cute. >< well, if you exclude the part about me having to wipe their butts for them after they shit. x.x they totally just throw the saikang to me lah. literally saikang. thanks man. i feel that im so totally meant to be a mom. lol. Loads of crying kids. And kids who cant even stand properly. Im serious, they fall like every 3 minutes. And you got to carry them up. And there's sleeping time too! hahahah.

had chalet with my balletbabes on thurs. lol. babes sounds so weird but ohwell, the name is stuck thanks to wenxin. hahah. watched dvds, bbqed, saw half naked teenage boys walking loitering outside our room in the middle of the night. well of course, the usual loads of talk about funny things, lame things, love things. hahah. somehow, everyone konked out by 2am. -.- nonetheless, love them! <3





didnt take loads of photos. most with mich. :)

<3 | TEAM APOLLO |=|inspire events comm| says (1:49 AM):
quote frm mitch albom: life is a series of pulls back and forth. you want to do one thing but u are bound to do something else. something haunts u but u noe it shldn't. u take some things for granted though u shld never take anything for granted. a tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band and most of us live somewhere in the middle
<3 | TEAM APOLLO |=|inspire events comm| says (1:49 AM):
so which side wins? love. love always wins

sometimes i even wonder, why am i so in love with it. its like, the only thing that makes me excited and brings a smile to my face naturally. but somehow, i just dont excel in it, which i assume is a 90% probability that im not working hard enough.
lol. learnt so many things this year, sometimes, i just want to say, why cant i just sleep and stop learning. its so tiring. the more you learnt, the more you think. huihong is right, so is steph and baobei. somehow, today they really convinced me, the direction i should go. even if it means rejection, i'll just... face it. hahah. if not, next time have chance then try again lor. i never really thought about it. but today talked to rachel, and i realised, she understands the feeling of rejection also. :) you wont understand it until you've been through it, that you got rejected by your love. well, prayed about it. the answer i had was that Jesus planned carefully before He made me who i am. And i should work what He gave me to my best.

Double pangseh in a day. Lol. I should really thank Jesus for giving me this chance to study with phia. :) Went for Wild Child after studies. The movie proved more touching and less bimbotic than i thought it was. Hahah.







I love my phiaphia a little bit more and more each day! <3

Peirong is lonely too. But she cant find her special companion who has a beautiful home to share with her, who can cook and clean for her...



lol!




Haiyah. Well... Loneliness cant be helped if the special companion dont come to you right. People, dont get too distressed by this sudden loneliness you are getting. Just wait patiently, and the apple will drop from the tree, the rabbit will run pass you. Alright, Peirong is getting nonsensical during the insane 4am in the morning. Lalala...

Got really bored of old blogskin. Stuck with me for so long le. So sian, in the end used baobei's old blogskin. Lol. Sophie... DBSK<3<3<3!!!

Promise of a Smile! Just got some photos from ChinaChai! The rest of the photos are with Michelle who, unfortunately, broke her computer down. Lol.











Cheryl seriously have the weirdest sense of dressing and somehow, only she can manage to pull off everything nicely. Lol. Another thing, Cheryl loves to wear sex bands but refuse to let me break any of them, claiming if i did i'll owe her sex. Like wh..wh..whatt?!?!

Night ended of with everyone shouting "I WANT A BOYFRIEND!" in the bus and loads of... quacks. Hahah. I love my balletbabes. <3

I guess this moment comes some time in everyone's life. But i just didnt expect it to be so soon in mine. Im kind of excited yet, apprehensive about it. :/
I guess, if it's successful, it'll all be about time management and my discipline. I think i'll get pretty stressed out. >< But I really really want to do dance, band, schwork well at the same time. I think im even desperate for all. :(

I think we're doing Buttons by PCD for hiphop and wenxin says due to some wardrobe malfunction we might be dancing in heels. -.-

NOEL'08!!!

Dont know what to say. Hahah. It's my first ever official concert for band.





I thought i looked sleepy. Until i see yuli and wawa's face. Lol!











Wanna say, I LOVE MY BPLUSB ALOT ALOT ALOT! <3 *hugs* Though i realise, everytime when there's an event that concerns me, some freak accidents will happen, tsktsk, but the whole clique will be there. So i love my bplusb alot alot alot! I wan double balloons next year!!! BIG BIG ONE KAY! ^^

Decided to save my previous post as draft. I kind of treat my blog more like a diary than something that people reads, but to lock it, it'll be kind of weird. I like to be constantly updated about my friends' lives, and well, im hoping my blog can also be a source of update about my life to them. Hahah. But ohwell, showing the world my messy room gained me lots of comments and remarks. Lol.

Went to recce places for VAN with Huihong yesterday and we walked around a little, taking lots of photos for games. Pretty fun. Ballet after that, followed by clam chowder with Cheryl and Belle. Hahah. Belle joined us for class! ^^

Went for rehearsal today and it lasted super long. Super tired. Went potong pasir and ate a little with Baobei and here i am, home! Probably cleaning up the last corner of my room later. Clean only, dont think can pack by today. And i want to play piano. Try lah. Was inspired by Zhikai yesterday by his 4 hours of violin everyday. Hahah. We'll see how it goes.