hmm. i think today... im pretty proud of myself. i did learnt to be a more sensible girl, did i? i want a kiss and a pat on the back. ^^

ballet wasnt good today. started off with inter, which bahhh... i pretty much sucked at it. and then it was grade 7, which was well... i guess worse? since exam's tomorrow and both ms pang and rachel were giving me negative vibes. lol! probably thinking too much but well, that doesnt help much. :/ and rachel has to scare me by saying that the examiner's really scary and not friendly. bahhh whatever, im just going to seduce her lah. believe me im gonna do it. im gonna use the power mask that jialing gave me for my birthday to recharge myself for tomorrow and i remembered to put it in the fridge first! ^^

studied with belle today. pretty productive. actually, i think this was first time in dont know how long that i sat down properly to study. like seriously... i never even studied properly like this for my blocks which, by the way, spells PHAIL... okay i admit, i didnt do much and was smsing most of the time. but the mood was there. i found the study mood today. i was searching it for a super long time. zhong yu zhao dao ni le. heh heh heh. i was so happy to be able to study again i kind of cant bear to stop studying. so i planned and planned stuff to study in the night. uhh. in the end, im here. what. am. i. doing. here. i have no idea. lol. oh and i found a new hobby. i realise, i like reading newsweek afterall. it makes me feel smart although most of the time, i dont get what im reading. credits to dear yuli for introducing me newsweek. i bet she doesnt even know when did she do that. lol. okay, i wont throw my newsweeks away anymore. :D save the earth.

i realised, after taking a step back and using a lighter heart to assimilate and absorb everything makes the world seem like a better place. you dont get frustrated, you dont get angry, you dont feel numb, you just feel lighter.

alright. no more complains. here's 6 alternatives to fasting from an email that yongen sent me.

1. fast from anger and hatred: give your loved ones an extra dose of love each day
2. fast from judging people: before making any judgement, recall how Jesus overlooks our faults
3. fast from discouragement: hold on to Jesus's promise that He has a perfect plan for your life
4. fast from complaining: when you find yourself about to complain, close your eyes and recall some of the little moments of joy Jesus has given you
5. fast from resentment of bitterness: work on forgiving those who may have hurt you
6. fast from spending too much money: try to reduce your spending by 10% and give those savings to the poor

guess i have alot to work on. :)