probably the worst birthday eve ever being an idiot and tearing all the way to potong pasir to find my baobei. hahah. seriously baobei, you're pampering me too much. whenever im a little sad or something and i cry, you're always there. now im getting weaker and every little thing makes me cry and i always turn to you. tsktsk. like some greenhouse small flower. but reading your last msg to me today put a smile on my face. "that's what baobeis are for!" hahaha. love ya baby.

hmmm. anyway, what im sad about. nothing much. it's just me being the not so sensible but overly demanding me. i dont want anything, i dont want cakes, dont want presents, i only want people. i dont even want alot of people. i only want you guys. today's probably just a bad day and it's nobody's fault. but it's really heartbreaking when im left alone at the end of the day. yes it's true, we can have dinner every night. but it's different when you have it for a different purpose. i dont even need you to know what special day it is. i just want you to be free and available for me, to spend the day with me. was so upset, i had thoughts of not going to school tomorrow. but ohwell, a cute 70 year old ahma cheered me up. she saw me in tears and thought i broke up with my boyfriend. she started saying things like, "it's okay girl. dont cry. he left you? you can always find another one. you dont have to give up the entire forest for just one tree. look at yourself. maybe it's your fault? it may not necessarily be his. it's okay silly girl, dont cry..." and she went on and on. it was so funny, i stopped crying.

dinnered at jack's place with dad and mom and meimei. probably wont ever come back to the jack's place here. gave them countless chances but they still serve this kind of bad quality steak. hai... daddy's so upset with it. lol.

actually today was just so bad that i cant even remember tomorrow. just didnt felt like it was. :/