Decided to take down that friends test thing. I assume it hates me and refuse to work alright.

Today... Learnt an important lesson. Brings me back to Sec 1. That was with Gillian in the empty space at cedar classroom block i still remember, if im not wrong, the event was PSGM. Today, it was Krystal, through sms, I was standing beside watching Luther play piano after sectionals. Dont worry baobei, my mood is 100% positive now, and not meaning to be sarcastic, i really want to thank you for reminding me. If not for the realisation today, i wouldnt have realised what i've been doing to everyone all these while, not knowing even if i irritated people or upset others. Now i feel kind of apologetic to you and hh and please accept this apology, no "nevermind"s. Okay, accept then i buy u cheapo ice cream then we happy forever again! :) Enjoy Macau okay? And hh India!

Recently i dont know why, feel this kind of drive in everything i do, maybe not everything, but at least certain things im sure.

I feel excitement when i push myself to run faster and i feel the urge to run quite often.

I feel like pushing myself to play better and better in trumpet with the exception of playing in front of others. That one, i still cant find the motivation to play well in front of others. To be honest, sectionals are the most stress things ever. Everytime i go for sectionals, i wonder if it'll push me to the limit of jing shen beng kui-ing. Nevertheless, i still love my section the way it is, even though its very different from cedar. Big thank you to Germaine and Sylvia for believing in me, thank you to Luther for being patient in guiding and never giving up on me, thank you to Jon for being there, thank you to Rachel and Lionel for helping me smoke through! :)

I want to pack my room and finish up homework asap.

I want to play piano. Especially after seeing Luther play it today. Hahaha. And i think of Yuli. Then i want to play my piano well. Arent you glad NgYuLi, to be my source of motivation?! Hahah.

I want to go church. I want to stay strong in faith. I want to keep running the race for my Lord Jesus!

I want to make meaning out of my life, somehow. Not trying to get emo, but this reflective thought just strikes me.


Vera: Aiyah, dont jealous lah you. Lol! Miss ya miss ya! Wanted to ask you out today actually but decided to clear up my room first. Hahah.

Yilin: ??? When is the potluck? I dont bring pot just luck, go can? Lol.

Krystal: <3 pokity dot

Yuli: Hmm. You sure you did some serious cool stuff? Not that i know of any! Hahaha. Kay lah. I've always secretly think you're a clever nice girl, zai in photoshop and piano. Not to mention extremely kind and nice to bully. HAhaha.

Soph: Hey dear, when you flying off to Japan?

Jialing: Even though you havent been tagging... (tsktsk) After talking to you yesterday, im really excited and happy for you. Wish you all the best kay. Whatever you do, trust your heart and do what you believe in, that's what i mean by let nature take its course. But of course, amongst all irrationality, please allow yourself to stay clearheaded sometimes. Love ya. Always here for you.