can i say, i think MJ's really cool?! i want to get my hands on the concert recording!

i never thought that you loved me, neither have i asked for it. but please dont hate me.

blogger is seriously dumb. ._.

anyway, i think times are crazy. be it by dragging myself through, even though i bleed and cover myself with dirt, or i cry it through and cover myself with tears, i'll do it. i'll do it because i must. even though everytime i try to climb out of the bottomless pit and fall back in, scratching and bruising myself, i still must do it. for everything.

i just think it's such a heartbreaking thing when you put in your effort and you still get this kind of results. and the ultimate sadness come from letting down those who stood by your side, helping you all the while whenever you need them without any complaints; my teachers. im very very very sorry to ms chua. ><

and im so glad i have people i love with me, loving me and never leaving me alone even though i have nothing more to offer them. i can never thank God enough with all my life with the things He blessed me with. too much. too much for what i deserve.

i dont get it. do i not love you enough. why do you have to make me feel worthless all over again.

i didnt want you to see it. i think i was stupid and i did alot of brainless things. but i dont want you to think that i changed. i didnt. i wont.

again and again. why we so suay. -.-

hmmm. i wonder what that means. hahah. love lane. tsktsk.

anyway, i am here to say, i am extremely upset that i did not go out with the class to watch UP today. so many people go somemore. ): infuriating. oh i learnt a new word today, awry. hahah. bena says it means crooked. but i still dont know how to pronounce it. oh back to topic. infuriating cus... i did not go watch movie cus i wanna finish my mountain of workload. i ended up sleeping after doing abit of physics and well... by the end of the day, i cant even finish 1 topic. tmd. -.- and now, despite napping in the afternoon already, i still feeling like sleeping by 9pm at night. something's seriously wrong with me but whatever. im still gonna succumb and sleep. heh.

this weekend's crazy lah. whoever says its time for me to chiong studies ought to be shot. i wasted my only free day, today, sleeping. tomorrow there's band farewell, which i 25% didnt wanna go cus i wanna mug. but i decided let's not overdo the mugging. sunday, can you believe it, im going to watch ndp. -.- besides the pri 5 one, i never watched ndp before, not even on tv. and now, you're telling me to sacrifice hours od study time for abit of fireworks and seeing cute guys in uniform? i suppose the latter is not bad. but but but... hai. okay im really converting into a mugger. lol.

Was it you
That said that you could never get enough of me
That you confessed
That when we were alone you had to tell yourself to breathe
So maybe I
Should feel a little more like I've been living in a dream
Well I'm asking you should I stay

Even though I love you
(I can't help thinking bout if I'd be better without you)
If we stay together
(It could get worse, then again, maybe it could get better)
Even though I love you
(I can't help thinking bout if I'd be better without you)
Somethings wrong we both know
That you and I still got a long way to go

Why would you
Wanna be with me instead of other guys
Oh make me feel
Like something special
God I think I've heard million times
So would it be enough
To buy you everything and call you mine
Cause it won't last long if I do

Even though I love you
(I can't help thinking bout if I'd be better without you)
If we stay together
(It could get worse, then again, maybe it could get better)
Even though I love you
(I can't help thinking bout if I'd be better without you)
Somethings wrong we both know
That you and I still got a long way to go

If I would leave tomorrow
You'd be the last to know

Even though I love you
If we stay together

Even though I love you
(I can't help thinking bout if I'd be better without you)
If we stay together
(It could get worse, then again, maybe it could get better)
Even though I love you
(I can't help thinking bout if I'd be better without you)
Somethings wrong we both know
That you and I still got a long... long way to go

Long way to go
Long way to go
Still got a long way to go

im weird. aint i? hello my brand of heroin. i dont know if i should curb my addiction. or can i even do it.